Hello All,
I am sitting here reflecting on all the things I wish I were and all the things I actually am...wellness wise. Phsyically I am a five. I am not overweight but I also am not fit. I know enough to know better but I seem to sabotage myself when it comes to a nutritious diet. I know that I should participate is some form of physical activity but find myself exhausted and late to bed most nights.
Spirtually, I am quite conflicted so again I would say I am a five. I know that we are here intentionally and that this isn't just chaos, but the more I read, the harder it is to decide what I truly believe. I struggle with why is only one "religion" right...how do we know that we aren't all talking about the same thing??? Yes I am conflicted.
Psychologically, I would say I am an eight. While life has been hard it has also been kind. I try to see all of my challenges as necessary in my life someway. I can be a tad on the negative side at times but that is only when I am feeling sorry for myself..so I just pick myself up and move on.
My goals to improve myself in these areas are as follows:
I will participate in our family baseball practices. Half of my brood play some form of ball and my husband practices with them. I went out tonight, hit a few balls and made a few plays and felt really good afterward. Physical activity will do me good!
I will continue on my spiritual journey. I will read and process with an open mind and I will continue going to churches until I find one I fit in. I will also work on silencing my mind...and myself...intentionally!
Psychologically, I will find an answer to a conflict weighing on my heart and my family. The bio mother of my children wants to come back in their life. I am unsure of what to do but I feel we need to make this decision soon so it no longers weighs on my mind.
As I listened to the exercise for relaxtion, I was able to relax and calm myself down. I find those hard to do because I undoubtly will be interrrupted by someone. I actually got more than half way done before I was needed and I felt calm and relaxed. With that being said...I will hit the hay!
Tonia Pfaff
Tonia,
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to your self sabotaging, I do it to myself all the time. I get myself into a good place where I am making time for daily exercise and eating a balanced diet and then boom I fall off the wagon.
I have found it very interesting how everyone has some conflict in their spiritual well-being, and the conflicts are all very different. As for myself and my family we do not "belong" to any particular religion. We have our own beliefs and we live by them.
I wish you the best of luck with your family decision that is weighing on your mind.