Interesting...

This meditation was the easist for me to complete.  I think what made it so easy was the ability to focus on a person who I have deemed as wise, kind and knowledgable.  I did feel lighter in a way but for some reason I had the fleeting thought that if I am taking her good energy I hoped she was being filled with my negative energy.  I think I will continue these practices in order to continue on my journey of integral health.  I would like to have better control over my mind.  This will help me achieve all my goals in life.

 "One cannot lead another where one has not gone himself" (p.477).

When I read this I feel it means that if you have not been in a situation you cannot give advice on a situation.  Right now, I am in the midst of a huge decision that will affect my entire family.  My oldest four children are not naturally mind but were given up by their birth mother almost 9 years ago.  She was a meth addict and really did them a favor by vanishing for a decade.  However, they remember her and as children they have many questions..questions that I can't answer.  She says she is clean now and wants a relationship with them, insisting she will cause no trouble.  Many people have given a big resounding NO! to this but they do not sit where I do.  They don't know the void she left that can only be filled by her.  So I am conflicted..what is the right thing to do? When do I do it?  We will start counseling shortly to sort through this mess. 

I feel that I must only ask of my clients what I am willing to do myself.  How can I point them in the right direction if I don't even know what direction that is?

Thanks for reading!

Tonia